these twists & turns of fate.

I'm going to apologize in advance for what I'm going to do.

Sorry.

Epiphany

Is it wrong to be proud of being manipulative? Is it be wrong to be proud of being so cold hearted? & is it so wrong to enjoy watching that person suffer?

I savour these special fucking moments.

I'm the devil.

he's just the type that I've been searching for all my life

I'm his dream girl. He's making me his one & only.

I hate Winter so fucking badly. There can't be any worse season in the whole entire world than fucking Winter. Monsoon weather can be dealt with easily however, Winter can live in the centre of my asshole for all I care. Fucking piece of shit weather. My fingers hurt from the cold. ):

Anyway, it's been a while since I've blogged because nothing really interesting's been happening I guess.. Apart from.. Annie's life.. Fucking cunt. She hooked up with 4 guys the second time we went clubbing while I only got 1 but it's not like I wanted any other. Third time she gets 3 & I still sit on 1.. Again not that I wanted any other. Got my eye on him the whole night 'cos he is fucking perfection on legs. Oh well, Annie settles for anything - even Indians. *Not that it's a bad thing but like you know.. Blame it on Clara I guess.

So I entered into Mounties Talent Quest & I'm in the semi-finals. Friday's the night (:

ANYWAY, I CAN'T TYPE ANYMORE. FINGERS ARE FROZEN. GAAAAHAS.

Lovelove, Wei.

i keep second guessing myself

Sorry for the lack of blog entries but I've been caught up living the good life.

Not quite.

A messy break up with my long time boyfriend Steven, which still isn't quite over. I'm not sure how to explain it but there are still the constant phone calls & regular texts. I'm confusing, I know.

I have my homework & assignments I have to catch up on & the transfer of campuses which I am really really praying will happen. I don't want to waste another year doing something stupid just to achieve one piece of fucking paper which says I've completed my year 12. God, please help me out & make it happen.

My Dad's pissing me off again. He'd say to me when I was younger, "When you turn 18, you can do anything you want & I won't give a shit", well that doesn't seem to be the situation now. I had no curfew before I turned 18 but now I fucking well do. Perfect. Fucking hypocrite. Fucking bastard. I'm restricted from going to the City. No more "discos" & no more coming home at 9am the next morning.. But I'm a rebel & I'll do whatever the fuck I want. Fuck the abuse. I'm tank & I'll kill that bitch.

Ah whatever..

I guess it's been a few rough weeks but I'm trying my best to keep my chin up & rape this shit. Can't waste time sulking. Got my life to live.

Update soon.. When all my problems turn upside down & inside out & life seems even more impossible to live.

i need a fix, a quick hit.

Hay all.

Sorry for the lack of blogging lately. I've been a bit busy sooking about shit, but I'm over it all.

Anyway, I went Bamboo on Saturday night with Janna, Annie & Clara, & lord, to use my own I.D felt no different to my old fake one. Hahas just that there was no fear factor this time & no chance that I would be turned away.

We caught the train from Cabramatta. Got off at Town Hall 'cos I wanted to eat before I drink & chunder like I did at Janna's. We ate at McDonald's. I lead the way to Bamboo though I wasn't sure if it was St. James or Bamboo we were going to because I'm usually drunk & forget stuff like that.

We were 2 blocks away from Bamboo. We all had one JagerBomb (brought from home) & got a bit tipsy on that. Janna needed it so she could get pumped up. (; We got in. There was no fucking line. Unbelievable! Every single other time I go there it's fucking packed all the way down the block. Haha lucky us.

I met up with Sockiie & her boyfriend & her friends. We were all in the pokie room. Tiny bit awkward but I guess I got over it. I don't remember any of their names. Hahas sorry! But that's the way it works when you're popular (; They know your name but you don't know theirs. Chyeah!

Well, Bamboo went off as per usual. I fucking loved it. Oh my God. First round of drinks (Long Island) was on me. It was the most fucking expensive might I fucking add. Quite fucking annoyed I had to spend so much. But whatever. That one drink got Janna smashed quick. That was the fucking funniest. Man, I love her.

Second round of drinks was on Annie or Janna. Can't quite remember but it was half of what I paid. Really really really pissed me off considering I'm quite close to fucking broke now. But anyway, I ordered us 3 wet pussy shots & something weak for Clara.

We danced for the whole night. Bumped into Paul from Campbelltown. Had a quick chat. Went back inside, then bumped into Chris! & I bought her & myself a long island & Janna a wet pussy. After getting a quick hit of alcohol, Clara & Annie pushed me up onto the empty podium. Lord, what an embarassment. I know I danced like a dick. I don't know why I kept going, but I pulled Chris up with me & we danced quick 'cos my legs hurt & my mouth was dry & I was puffing. Damn you cigs!

Got off, some random chick pulled me toward her & was like "Dance with my friend. He wants to dance with you." I was thinking.. Is this a joke? Is it 'cos I'm really really bad at dancing?! Lord, if it is 'cos of that I will never live that down 'cos now.. the cunt is on my facebook. Hah.

Okay, I'm not bothered to explain the rest of the night. But I'll make a quick summary for you.

We all got smashed. Especially Janna. Annie had her very own cigg! She puffed most of it down. I'm quite proud of her. Call me a bad influence & I'll deck you bitches. Umm, Clara didn't pay for any of the drinks. Yep, good on you. Hmm, some guy grabbed me from underneath my arms & pulled me up onto the stage. I must admit that's cool. I felt like a fucking diva. Hahas. I danced with Jason Kim that fucking awesome motherfucker! & Chris was dancing with the guy who pulled me up. Chris & I stole lollipops. I stole it from the guy who I was asked by another chick to dance with.. Who thinks I'm a fucking hilarious joke when I dance I guess. LOL. Janna & I got kicked out. Annie & Clara were outside. Paul was outside too. We started talking blah blah blah. Got in a taxi. Went home. THEN I got drunk. Fucking stupid.

Anyway, I know most of that story didn't make sense but.. Yeah. I don't give a shit. I had a good time & y'all missed out so suck on that bitches. Especially you Bronson. Asshole. Told you to come! But nooooooo, had to sook.

HMF.

OH & JANNA, I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU READ THIS. YOU ARE GOING TO BE MY NEW CLUBBING BUNNY. FUCKING. GOD. I LOVE YOU.

Lovelove, Wei.

FINALLY 18

APRIL 1ST/APRIL FOOLS - MY LOVELY BIRTHDAY

I'M GLAD TO SAY, I'VE FINALLY HIT THE AGE OF 18.

TIME TO BUY ME SOME SMOKES & A BOTTLE OF SMIRNOFF.

THANKS FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES:
-JOHNNY
-CLARA
-STEVEN
-MASON
-JULIE LAY
-ZAC
-ANGELA
-ERIKA
-TINA
-MASON
-JASON
-SURAJ
-SONG
-MATT
-LINA
-JULIE LIM
-ANNIE
-BELL
-BRONSON
-KELVIN
-JESSICA
-DENNIS
-KRYS
-DIMITRIOS
-HUY

& I'LL HOPEFULLY UPDATE THE LIST LATER.

LOVELOVE, EVERYDAY.
LOVE, WEIWEI.

cash rules everything around me ; i'm YSL, VER-SA-CE

I think you need someone to want you. Well, I do want you. So be brave.. and want me back.
-Skins.

Salaam-o-aleykum all!

It's 4:06AM Tuesday morning & it's raining!.. & now it's stopped. It poured for around about 5 seconds *literally, & stopped. Fucking retarded piece of shit weather. I was getting excited! I love sleeping when it's raining out. I hate the sun sometimes. I really do.

On a more important topic, there's only one day left until I turn 18 years old! I'm not as excited as I was about 10 days ago.. That should've been the day Q-Dance was held. Lord. Birthdays have never turned out good for me, except for that one time I was 8. Anyway, I remember my 15th & 16th & 17th birthday was fucking horrible. I'd love to explain it in explicit detail but I don't want to seem like a sook.. Plus complaining has gotten me into enough trouble last time. Bloody munts is what they is.

Oh & a reminder to those who have forgotten. I'm beautiful. Akon said so with his honey lips & chocolately brown skin. Mmmmm. Just makes me wet thinking about it..

Moving along! I have this really weird & disgusting habit: Whenever a scab seem to be falling off but still hanging on, I try my best to stick it back on. I have a scab really close to my right eye because I scratched it way too hard & it scabbed up & it was just about to fall off the other day but I don't want to have a weird looking, discoloured patch of skin looking fucking dry & retarded so I stuck it back on. I licked my finger & pushed it down hard onto my scab & it stuck. Haha I think it's too disgusting for a few people to handle. I'm sure most of you are grossed but I find it fucking heeee-larious. (:

I was looking up my starsign & the personality traits of an Aries. It's fucking spot on for a few.
-restless
-lustful ; haaaarrd.
-head-strong
-jealous
-quirky ; I'd say it's a nice thing!
-hot-headed
-blunt
-self-centred ; Fuck yeah, everybody knows it & they love it!
-argumentative
-bossy
-impulsive
-impetuous
-impatient

Wooo, I'm a handful. To be honest, I'm proud to be that obnoxious & a massive asshole. It's funny how I usually get away with it. Haha, oh Lord. Sorry for the people who have to put up with me, but hay, y'all know I'm worth it. I'm God's gift to the universe.

Anyway, I've been staying up really late these past few nights; I think it's been since Saturday because of the fucking jagerbombs that killed my sleeping patterns. Fuck you V. You never work when I need you to but when I want to fucking sleep you decide to kick in. You better not behave badly when I see you this Saturday 'cos I'll rape your Mum & steal your children & eat your dog.. Motherfucker. Actually, on second thoughts I think I'll keep your dog as a pet. Fucking V.

I am untamed - I need a leash
I am insane - I need a shrink

Lord. I need sleep. But before I go, here is the visual aid for today. I practically fell of my chair laughing from seeing this shit.


Love, WeiWei.

all i really wanna do is get with you ; tell me what it's going to take to get with you

Guten Tag all.

I've just smoked my last cig from my deck & I am feeling quite proud of myself because I tossed half of it away! Hah. *To be honest, I really regret it now. My smoking days are almost over. Today & tomorrow.. & Saturday night; only because that's also slightly counted as my birthday 'cos I'm fucking celebrating it that night all-fucking-right?!

These are my current favourite smokes that I can't put down.


*Pretty aren't they? (:

On the topic of my long-awaited 18th birthday, my lovely boyfriend Steven offered to pay for half of the phone I really want: the Nokia E71. I'm going to hold him to it 'cos I'm in desperate need for a functioning phone. The ugly & disfunctional phone I have now: the Nokia 6500 doesn't recognize my memory card anymore & sometimes I have difficulty making phone calls. I guess I'm the one to blame considering I threw my phone across the room twice & it fell apart. *Don't tell me I need anger management. I manage my anger just fine thankyou very much!

Sexy isn't it?!

Steven's also taking me out for dinner at Shangri-La! Oooh Lordy, I've been going crazy over this place for a few days & I can't stop ranting about it. I am in absolute love with the place. It's probably the only place in Sydney that doesn't look like a ditch. However, I'm not happy with the overpriced food so perhaps I'll make him take me to Centrepoint's 360 Bar & Dining!

So, this is Shangri-La's Altitude Hotel & it looks fucking
spec-fucking-tacular!

or the 360 Bar & Dining *sorry the picture is tiny but I find any larger ones on Google.

It's quite nice.. But Shangri-La is breath-taking. So I'm quite sure I've made my mind up now. Shangri-La it is!

**Sorry for emptying your wallet aye babe, but you offered! Lol no takesies backsies! ♥ Love you forever & ever & ever & ever. (:

2 more days!

Oh & yeah I know I've been posting a lot of pictures up lately, & what?! They're visual aids. I'm saving you the time to Google that shit up. Hah! So you can thank me for making life so much easier for you. I'm your saviour. I'm your Saint. Sooooo, eat that yaaaaaa munt.

Love, WeiWei.

feels like insomnia

Hi all.

I've been having trouble sleeping. It's Sunday morning & I slept at 4AM & woke up at 5AM. It's now 8:21AM. I've been up since then & I'm feeling a bit nauseous.. It's either the alcohol I chugged down last night or the water I fucking "guzzled" down too quickly. Bear Grylls says not to "guzzle water when you're dehydrated as it makes you nauseous." *I love you Bear Grylls. Thanks for the survival tips. If you ever come across this, my phone number is KL5-9835, area code: 417. Give me a call. Thanks BearBear.

Nauseous seems like a fucking understatement at the moment. Ha.

Anyway, my birthday's nearing! 3 more days & I'll be legal for everything.. Unless I'm in America, as 21 is the legal age. Ho dumbai.

Which brings me to the next topic, my Aunty invited me to join her to travel to America & I'm seriously considering it. I need to breakaway from crappy Sydney & it's crappy people. If I do happen to go & happen to like it, I'll apply for a citizenship & if I score, I'm hoping to move there & it'll be permanent. Yeah, I might be thinking too far ahead but I can't help but be a little excited. I've been waiting for a chance to go to America to pursue what I dream to be my lifestyle & now I've been given the chance.. Though I'm stuck with a dilemma. Should I stay or go?

My super-cool Mum is here. My sometimes-lovely boyfriend's here. My rarely-awesome best friend is here. I don't think I'm ready to leave everything yet, but what's life if you don't take chances right?

Understand why I'd love to travel to New York City & fulfil my fucking dream of having a "Sex & The City" lifestyle. High hopes & wishful thinking I know but I can dream, motherfuckers.

I mean, compare this..

to this..




Eeew Sydney. What a sad comparison ):

NYC shits on you Opera House & Harbour Bridge. Useless landmarks. Eat that yaaaaaaaaa munt.

*Okay, I'm sorry Sydney but admit it.. You're pretty damn ugly compared to NYC.

..Thoughts please ):

Love, WeiWei.

either put it back together or let it stay smashed forever ..

Clara is the fucking best! I will admit for the first & only time. Let me explain:

She bought me a present. I'm note quite sure of what it is but knowing her it's going to be something really fucking dumb, or something that's the biggest smart-arse remark wrapped in gift wrap. Whatever it is, like the fucking girl I am, I started to tear up. Who would've ever thought in their wildest imaginations that Clara, of all people has the ability to make me cry..

I'll admit it's a sweet gesture but you'd never expect Clara to be the person to pursue it.

AAAAAH, I LOVE YOU CLAREBEAR!



LOVE YOU FOR LIFE!

*She's the one on the right (: She looks fucking psychotic doesn't she?! That's what makes us bffls. BARBIE BITCHESSSS!
*& for you freaky stalkers out there, I'm not in that picture. But if you're interested in Clara, her address is 5/10 .. HAHHAA JOKING.